Due North

Memorial Weekend

This past weekend was an outstanding one for a change. My oldest son and his family came up for the weekend and stayed in one of the cabins. My grandson seemed to be having the time of his life, between going canoeing and riding the quad to playing in the water at the shore. It was hard to see them leave, but I have the feeling that they will return sooner or later. I have to give his wife kudos's, as she was out of her element I know.

It was a much needed weekend, as on Thursday I go to court for the first of I do not know how may court dates. I am filing for bankruptcy, my x wife has made sure I will never see the light of day for many many years if at all. Talk about a parting lasting gift that keeps on giving and giving. I hope I never see her and never have to speak with her for an extremely long time.

This has been one of my better days

Well today was not a bad day all the way around. I was finally able to get the new hot water heater hooked up properly and working. So finally have running cold and hot water, with no leaks anywhere that I can see. Now bare in mind I had not had running water since about last November. First it was frozen pipes, underground, and then waiting for the pumps to be repaired. Then the hot water heater burning out.

Today was the first day I was able to take a shower at home, instead of going up the road to dad’s for one. I still have to go up the road to do my laundry but that is okay. Make one really appreciate some of the things we take for granted now. Like running water, hot water, electric and the list goes on and on.There are many that  do not have the simple luxury of having a warm and dry place to sleep or call their own.

Makes one wonder some times, we as Americans will rush to others aid to bring these things into being after a disaster or missionary work. If we put as much effort in helping those that live here, how much better off would we be then, to help other countries? Hmmm perhaps there is a solution there, those that do not have a place or even a job, offer them one helping out, and providing meals, a warm/dry place to sleep and helping others at the same time. But that is just me, least for today anyways eh.

Anyways I got side tracked, about today, it was a good day.  

A Cold but Sunny Morning

Well today is starting out cold but sunny. Good sleeping weather, just hope it warms up enough to make it a good day this afternoon. From the sounds of it out side the Canadian Geese seem to think it is an excellent morning to do a bit of chatter. Well more because I let the dog out rather then the state of the morning, but it sounded good no?

Hopefully today will be better then yesterday, I was so frustrated and disappointed, let me tell you. Finally got the new hot water heater hooked up plumbing wise, and there are 2 leaks. Enough so that I do not dare allow the water to remain on for more then 5 minutes, and I can’t get the fittings any tighter then as they are now. One fitting is a compression fitting and it just will not seal at all, not sure why the other is leaking. Only know I myself can not get it any tighter. I was so looking forward to having running water the the ability to take a hot shower at home, instead of running up to Dad’s.

I was thinking of running into town today to get some blocks for a deck I am planning on using, but think I will put that off until tomorrow. It’s going to bum me right out that I have to now call a plumber to come out and take care of the problem, well if they are willing to do so any ways, not all are willing to do so because of the ferry schedule.

Ahhh well just some thing else for me to churn away on, ya know?

Another month

Well this month is rapidly coming to an end, and I still do not have running water in the trailer. The hot water heater blew and had to replace that, of course the fittings and placement is not the same, so I had to buy new hardware for it.

A few days after medication increase

Well it has been a few days now that I have been taking the increased medication to help control my mood swings. The last few days it has made me rather tired if I was not actively doing something.

The April Blues

I am not sure if this is the best or worst time of year. On the one hand spring is here or at least around the corner. On the other hand, it is not yet full spring, just had snow the other day and temperatures below 40. Least today is a warmer day, lets hope it continues.

A warm front

Seems a warm front is moving in this week, which will be a nice change from the cold. Not that it has been that could for a while now, but the change is nice still the same. Hopefully it will be warm enough to allow a comfortable walk and maybe some new spring time photo’s.

I Remember

I remember a time that when I came online, I would be greeted by good mornings or hey ya’s. Now perhaps when I need that the most, there is nothing but silence. Except for a few, but they normally wish some thing from me, after that it is nothing but silence.

I remember a time not so long a go, when I did not have internet and was so excited to get it back. So that I could talk to my friends once again, but am greeted by silence. My buddy list is open like a great monolith on the edge of my screen, silent and staring at me. Perhaps mocking me in it’s own way.

Make me wonder if I stopped going online if I would even be missed or even a thought on the edges of some ones mind. I feel that perhaps not, after all who wants to talk to or be around some one that is broken and no longer contributing to society as I once did. I have become a nothing, a ghost of what I once was.

Detached, Isolated and Alone

Those are the 3 words that some one who does not deal with or fight depression can not understand. I on the other hand, and others that do suffer from depression, understand all to well.

Restless and Down

I have been restless and down for the last week or so, and I wish I knew why. One friend said it was because of allergies, another the time of the year. Doesn’t really matter the results are the same.